There’s a peace that comes from within when you reach a place you’ve longed for. You might think I speak of some inner zen but the truth is, sexual release is what gives me this peace. Sexual release on a level I feel I can get with you, it’s a place where you and I have just touched the surface.
With you I can explore, dive in, play, create, allow and just be myself sexually. Sometimes you seek a person hoping to connect on a mental level but in a physical aspect and you never find it. Connecting with someone mentally when it comes to sex is a different level of sex in and of itself. I finally feel like I can reach new heights and orgasmic blisses with you. I’ve searched so long for someone to want to play and discover with me.
I don’t seek a friend, I don’t seek nuance or trivial conversations, I don’t care for daily routines; none of those things I care about or matter to me. But that sexual connection that we have to experiment, try and play is what I want; it’s what I need and yearn for. It’s this physical desire that touches you mentally but only for the sake of achieving the ultimate sexual high….
It’s almost 8 and I’m struggling to sleep. You sense my agitation and spoon my body towards yours in bed. I welcome the warmth your body provides. I nestle my ass to your already swollen cock. I’m not fully awake but not fully asleep. Your right hand reaches over and cups my right breast. It feels soft and full in comparison to your rough calloused hands and my body welcomes it. Your fingers put pressure on my nipple and my eyes open wide. You can’t see my facial expressions but the breath that escapes my mouth is very audible. Your teeth scrape my neck all the way to my right shoulder as your assault on my nipple continues. The intensity is building in between my legs from your nipple rubbing and my breathing is turning into short gasps which begin to turn into low moans. Your biting into my shoulder and the pain from your teeth with the sensation from my breast is overwhelming. You know my breasts are highly sensitive and your intention is to bring me to the edge. Your right hand moves up to my shoulder and you push it down as your upper body slides up from behind me. We lock eyes as your lips begin a further assault on my right breast. Your lips are tugging, your tongue soothing and your teeth pressuring and biting my nipple. The building sensation inside of me feels like a water dam ready to be released or cracked open from the pressure. Your movements on my nipple are methodical and calculated. My moans are so loud because now, your biting is hard and the sensation is paralyzing. We stare at each other as your hand travels down to my underwear. Your eyes never leaving mine and your teeth still clamped on my nipple. You slide your fingers in between now my soaking wet folds and you spare no mercy on my clit. ‘Fuck baby you are soaking wet’ and I close my eyes from the deep feeling in the back of my spine and you demandingly follow with ‘keep them open and look at me’. I feel the dam about to burst open when my eyes close again and you say ‘eyes open NOW’ ever so demanding. Your middle finger on my clit is playing a masterful piece of music and I’m going deep into a black abyss. My body is so far gone and what seems like an eternity has only been but maybe a few minutes. The water is seeping through the cracks of the dam and now you whisper in my ear ‘cum all over my hand beautiful but keep looking at me’. My moans complete your symphony as the orgasm breaks through and your fingers begin a different assault on my pussy….
I wake up and I imagine you grabbing my throat from behind as your other hand guides my ass towards you. You slide your cock all the way into my pussy folds and tell me good morning. I’m not fully awake but I can feel my eyes rolling so far up my head from the sensation you bring about in my body. I can’t speak, my words are muffled by the pressure of your hand on my throats. My moan comes out like a grunt and I can barely breathe. You whisper in my ear that this pussy is yours and I can barely register anything because your fucking me with such intensity. It’s like my pussy is trying to get away and you are making sure it’s not. You pound hard and extract slow, then ram back in with such force. After only a few minutes your hand finds and circles my clit and I detonate inside with such compulsion. I scream that I’m coming and it’s enough to send you over the edge. In my ear I hear you telling me not to stop, to cum all over your dick and I do. Our juices blended together as your rhythm slows, create a masterful cream pie….
Don’t you miss my lips….? My taking you in to my mouth and sucking until my lips tire…? Going so deep all the way down my throat my breathing is obstructed….? Don’t you want and desire that…?
Close your eyes and imagine my lips devouring you and attempting to eat you and taste you all at the same time. I want to swallow you whole. I want the smell to permeate my nostrils so deep that when I sleep my only dreams are of you making me yours.
I can still smell you in my mind and taste you in my mouth. I can feel your hands on my ass spreading my cheeks and biting hard, nibbling soft, biting again but harder. The pain is oh so terrifying and yet so liberating. I’m getting excited and wet. I’m scared the skin will break and expectant it will but it doesn’t. We are building a sexual trust and I’m loving giving in. The fear and excitement both together as one. My pussy is throbbing with a deep desire to feel you inside me and it’s like you can read my mind because your fingers start to massage my lips and your face sinks deep within my folds. I’m trying to touch you and grab you from behind me but I’m so far gone with desire and wanton that I quickly try to desist. The burning sensation and desire within the pit of my stomach is making me weak. I need you so bad. Your impatience with my hands at their attempt to grab you comes to head and you grab both my arms. In a swift movement you slide deep within me from behind. You slide in effortlessly because my pussy is wet from the foreplay. There’s a tingling sensation that travels to the base of my spine. It’s a desire so deep I just want to lose myself in it. Your thrusts are so deep and so forceful; slow and mechanical so I don’t miss a single feeling. My moans get stuck in my throat from so much want. I want to scream and release this immense sensation. I try to turn around but you won’t let me. I know it’s because of the depth you are achieving. It’s hard to stop when it’s so fucking delicious. Time stands still and time goes fast, before I realize I’m on the precipice and it’s a sensation I want to relish in… I go over the mountain edge and my brain function is diminished tenfold. I just want to bask in this warmth within me but you don’t stop and I’m amazed at your virility. I shouldn’t though, your body is that of a god. It’s perfect in all angles; like a temple and your pen name for me is Mr. Crossfit after all… I turn around and kiss you. You kiss me back with tenderness and it’s just what I need at the moment. Now I just want to devour you. My tongue darts out to taste myself on you and it’s such a turn on. You grab my hair and pull me up to you, our eyes do this dance as our tongues collide with one another. You lay down and just stare at me as I nuzzle my body in between your legs. I can still smell the desire in you that hasn’t been released. My senses are so keen with you. I suck gently on your balls and my mouth tugs on them. It’s like your my last meal and I want to take you all in. My tongue slides all the way up your underside and I look into your eyes. I’m anticipating my own actions and becoming more aroused which I find isn’t even possible. I’m still trying to come down from the blissful mind blowing orgasm. My tongue makes it all the way to the glorious head and I envelop it with my lips. It’s taste is succulent. I suck on the head gently when all I want is swallow it whole. I slide down slowly until my lips touch the base but I want more. Your head touches the back of my throat and I simulate swallowing with my throat. It gives it an extra sensation deeper inside my mouth. You grab my head and attempt to keep me there a bit longer and I start to gag; what a glorious feeling. Now I can’t breathe so I come back up for air. When I’m able to get some air I go back down and simulate my mouth fucking you slowly. I look at you and your eyes are closed, such a fucking turn on to know I can bring pleasure to you on this level…..
Later tonight I will see him again. Two weeks to the last time I was hypnotized by his amazing sexual skills. I knew he would be good just never imagined he would beyond surpass that. I never imagined that he would be utterly amazing and almost perfect.
I reach out to him in small talk and sometimes hours and days pass before I hear back from him. He doesn’t understand that I don’t care about his feelings per se. I don’t want to talk about how your day was or how is work treating you. I don’t care what you had for breakfast, lunch or dinner. I don’t care if you have plans and are going somewhere. I don’t care about you at all. What I do care about is keeping this flame inside of me alive. I want to flirt with you on the phone, hear you say what you’re thinking of sexually. I want to know the things that you would like me to do to you. I want you to keep me wet during the day with just your words.
In the beginning my method didn’t work. Perhaps I enjoyed our silly flirting too much but what I wanted as an end result was always the same; him inside of me tearing up my pussy. Men confuse women trying to interact with them as women seeking something more and that’s not the case. A women just likes to talk about sex (well some do). I like to engage and get turned on by words. I want to fantasize and men mistake that for other nonsense. I want the interaction for purely sexual purposes; hear all the dirty things in your mind and allow me to visualize it throughout the day….
Humans need to learn to communicate better.
In life people cross your path to leave an imprint sometimes negative and other times positive. He was different and I now know why. Despite his situation I wish someone would love me and be committed to me the way he is with her. He’s caring for her because she is sick despite the fact that she doesn’t remember him. But that will never happen. I’m successful, own my home and car but I’m not worthy of anyone’s love. It’s just not in the cards for me. Successful women never get the good men. Truth is the losers and crazies always get the good men and then they tear them down to have them now hate women or simply treat women differently. C. O. could have been a great summer fling but now he is just another booty call. 4/22
The sensation returns to the pit of my stomach. I close my eyes and I try to replay so many details. I remember so many and yet it was so much in one day, many details escape me. I remember the 69 with him on top because he was fucking my mouth. I couldn’t breathe but I didn’t care. He was trying to grind into me and I was trying to gain control with much difficult. My hands were on his ass and I was relishing in total desire and satisfaction.
His smell is something that’s embedded in my nostrils. God he smelled so fucking good it was like I wanted to inhale him. When he came on my stomach, I spread my fingers over it to taste and and I couldn’t believe how good he tasted. Full disclosure I hate that taste but I just knew it would be different with him and it was. Fuck I want him again so fucking bad.
I’ve had so many countless lovers and somehow he’s made his way to the top of that long list. I never thought that possible. 5 orgasms in one day, how can I not crown him the best ever. His hands so methodical and his mouth so full of tender caresses all over my body, his manhood guided by his skillful fucking of women. A god in all descript yet still just a man.
I lay here at work because I’m stuck until tomorrow, long story but instead of working my regular afternoon shift I have to work in the day time.
I’m thinking of C.O. and Mr. Crossfit guy. C.O. was who I was looking forward to spending time with this summer. We hit it off and he appeared to be on the same page as me. The sex was fucking awesome and he was even loving and attentive. What I wasn’t expecting was his soap opera of a life ruining my plans with him. Long story short he is taken but his girlfriend had a medical issue where she doesn’t even know who he is to her. What the fuck you might say, yeah trust me I’m right there with you. He’s giving it 2 more years to see if she gets better and then he’s calling it quits. I can’t compete with that. That’s next level love which frankly I’ve given up on. I don’t want love. I want fun but with no responsibilities. Sex with no attachment and conversation with no depth. Yes I’m crazy, but crazy is my middle name.
Mr. Crossfit guy is just a bag of disaster. I like to engage and talk about nothing and everything sexual. You retain my attention that way. Mr. Crossfit doesn’t engage, doesn’t reply half the time to messages and is so absent he might as well not even exist. It’s quite childish but a child he is. Except in bed, in bed he is truly a king! His sex is fucking exquisite and so mind blowing. He def made my top three of all time and I almost considered giving him the number one spot but his character makes me want to keep him in spot 3 for now.
Just needed to vent. Going to try and sleep.
My tongue swirls around your head slowly. I look up as my lips close around it. I watch you as your eyes roll back and close slowly. It’s an immediate turn on for me and a push to continue my descent upon your shaft. I let the saliva slide down the side of your penis and some of it gets on my fingers that are wrapped around your huge manhood. I lick my fingers and twirl the tongue back on to your shaft. I go back up to the head and begin my descent once again. Such a beautiful and massive piece that tastes oh so delicious. My lips slide down leaving a slippery slope to assist in my glide. I can hear your moans which sound so intoxicating to my ears. I want to hear more. I open my lips slightly wider and close them again on your cock but closer to the base. The smell invades me and I can feel my pussy getting wetter. I want to inhale your cock. The head hits the back of my throat and you push ever so slightly. My gag reflex hits me and I don’t care because I want to give you that intense sensation. I push a little further down until my breathing is obstructed. I come up slightly for air and descend once again. I love the overwhelming feeling of power it gives me. I come back up and slide my tongue the entire way there. You grab my head and pull me close to kiss you. We engage in a short but sexually charged kiss. It awakens me even more and I didn’t think that possible.